These Are The Days

These Are The Days

Friday, December 28, 2012

Our Tiny Son SAMUEL


I haven't blogged in over 5 weeks. Not since our world turned upside down. I still don't know what to write. I just want you to meet my Son. He was born to early. He was perfect. He was completely perfectly formed, 100% healthy. The only reason he died was because his Mama's body just refused to cooperate and he died shortly after birth. We tired so hard, but it was too late, the combination of a nasty infection, that caused pre labor, too many contractions, my body completely ready to deliver, a surgery that would have worked, had I not already completely funnnled open from the contractions. The surgery, laying head down in a bed and drugs trying to stop my contractions bought us too more weeks, but on December 8, we knew it was too late, nothing was stopping it anymore, I was in full labor, they had to cut my stitch. I now know there is nothing worse than feeling your little boy kick you perfectly healthy, until he drops into your birth canal while laboring and dilating clear to 10 cm. Knowing the whole time that your babies chance at life is 0-10%, and three hours later, at 5:16 p.m. , without a dry eye in the room,  SAMUEL JOHN was born. He came in to the world at 1 lb. 3 oz. and my husband and I had to watch him struggle to breath and die in our arms. We kept him with us for 4 hours. Our  children met their brother and wept over him, our families came to meet their grandson, and nephew. I never felt such pain. I've had a miscarriage but there is no comparison to holding and watching your baby die. I will write more later but for now, I can't hardly see the screen through my tears. So for now, a picture. This is Our Son. He got to spend his first Christmas in Heaven. We are so in love with him and will miss him for the rest of our lives.
Our baby Boy :

Samuel John 
December 8, 2012
1 lb. 3 oz .



Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Locks Of Love

One last picture of Maggey's beautiful hair ....
Moments before it all comes off ....
For a great cause ....
Miss. Maggey cut her hair off today to send to Locks of Love .
Much shorter ....
Looking Great !
Thanks to our fabulous new hairdresser Laurie who refused to let us pay, since Maggey was doing this for a great cause ....
A child somewhere who has been battling cancer, will have a beautiful wig made out of Mag's hair ....
Ready to mail ...
Proud of our girl :)
She looks darn cute in that haircut too !!!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Our MAGGEY is 9 :)

Maggey Rheann
7 lbs 1 oz ....
Born 2 1/2 weeks early ....
I went into labor at 1:50 a.m.
I was holding her in my arms at 2:40 a.m.  
7 minutes after we drove into the hospital parking lot ....
Not gonna lie to you ... I wasn't able to sit on that car ride ...
For obvious reasons :)
I know !!!
Crazy Fast :)
She has one of the biggest hearts of anyone I know ....
Growing up to be a beautiful girl ....
Inside and Out ...
Happy Birthday Sweetie :)

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Making Memories

Memories ....
Of sleepovers ....
And acting silly ....
Hanging out with older cousins ...
Being carried when your little legs get too tired ....
Building forts just as good as the boys do - If not better  !!!

I firmly believe its the pink that makes all the difference ....
Just being together ...
Squeezing a year into two short weeks ...
Crafting together ....
Painting Christmas tree ornaments ...
To put on the tree ...
That is being decorated insanely early ....
When they've all grown up ...
When they are scattered here and there ....
When life gets in the way ....
And it's harder to all get together ....
They will always have these childhood memories of their time together ...

Hotel'in It !

This past weekend my In-laws took us to Maine for a night in a hotel.
The kids thought it was great ...
Simply because we actually let them jump on the beds ....

Little Man kept saying, " This is so wonderful " ....
His first time ever in a hotel ....
Can ya tell ?
This is a little more like where we are used to staying ....
So we let them jump as much as they wanted ...
Because I'm " The Mom " ....
That won't let them do this at home ....
Enjoy it while you can kiddos !!!!
And then they crashed ...
:)

Friday, November 9, 2012

Growing Baby

18 Weeks 2 Days ....
Baby is growing ....
Heartbeat was 151 today :)
Thankful for a healthy baby 
BOY or GIRL ...

I still say Girl ....

Baby was opening and closing his/her mouth today ....
It was the sweetest thing ....

Two more weeks of patiently waiting  ....
Then we will know ....
The baby will finally be ...
He or she instead of "it" ....
If we don't back out that is ....
And go for the Surprise at delivery ....

We will keep you posted :)

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

18 Weeks :)

Here we are at 18 weeks :)
Nope !
You are definitely not seeing things ...
That is indeed a Christmas tree hidden behind the belly ...
My parents got a little confused ... they thought it was the first of December not November ....
Not Really ....
They wanted to put the tree up while my sis and her kiddos were here ....
They left this morning ...
So there is sadness all around...
There were tears ....
My kids look like life might never be the same ...
What will they ever do without their cousins here ...

Well for starters ...
Back at the ole school grind tomorrow morning bright and early ....

We do miss them already though ...
Alberta is a very long ways away ...
My sis is coming though when the baby comes ...
And we will see them all in 9 months when we meet up for vacation in Tennessee next August ...

Until then, we have Facebook, Skype, phone and good ole fashioned snail mail to get us by ....
 And Remember ...
Time has this way of always going fast ...

Saturday, November 3, 2012

The Cousins Are Here

My sis and her three kids have been at my parents visiting for the last week or so. It makes it pretty exciting around here, because we haven't seen them in 17 months! They live about a kajillion miles away .... ok well maybe not that far ~ but close ... My kiddos counted down the days for months til they got to play every day with their cousins... We charged ahead with school so we could be ahead before they came and take a few days off  - to just play!!!
The girlies who remain bestest friends even with the distance ....
The Boys :)
There's been lots of hanging around from morning til night 
Country Fun :)
They haven't been able to play the whole time ....
They had to work too ....

Which was basically play ....
They had cooking lessons ....
On how to make rolls ....
All the grand kids with my mom ....
1 more to add next year :)
Tea parties in formal attire ....
The whole family minus my sisters husband Aaron, who couldn't come this trip ....
I put these pics in ...
because ....
Isn't this just the cutest 
cowboy/mechanic 
that you've ever seen ....
:)

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Pumpkin Carving

Monday night at Youth Group, the kids did pumpkin carving ....
Which meant the mess was at the church ...

Not at my house ....
Brooke & Halley 
Baylee & Maggey 
Digging in ....
Getting it done ...
The younger girlies ....
The older girlies holding their heavy pumpkins ....
All the kiddos and their carvings ....
I of course couldn't figure out my flash , so it didn't just show the glowing of the pumpkins ....
We brought them home to show Daddy and Cooper ....
and it took John all of 1.2 seconds to figure out the flash for me ....
:)